To love

"You're not going to give me clarity, are You?" I implore the Almighty. "I have a feeling that You're not going to make this easy and clear, God. You want me to trust".


That He does. He reveals each step as I take a step forward. My spirit draws dreams and pictures of the path He calls me to take. But my eyes see nothing. Nothing but what He has promised me.


"Father God!" this time I cried out in my uncertainty, tears streaming down. "You called me to Asia and put such a burden on my heart for the people, but how can You get me there? Every possibility seems impossible right now. I have no money. And if I leave the country for more than 3 years, I can't come back. How are You going to figure that one out, Lord? People think I'm crazy, Lord!


"But.. but.. my heart still desires You. Desires to leave everything behind to follow You. What can I do now?"

"Now you pray," simply said He. Unwavering yet gentle, as the Almighty is, was and will always be. Unchanging. unflinching. Unfailing. Unending. Eternally faithful. "You pray like never before. You pray for all those people you've seen and heard. Pray for the nations that I have put in your heart. Pray for Asia. Pray for the lost, the lonely, the hungry, the helpless. You pray and I'll do the rest. You're not just loving the people by being there. You're loving them by praying for them over here. Now, do you really love them? Can you love them here?"

So for now I will trust. I will pray. I will love.